Back to the future

warning: i'm going to bore you with the posting thingy again.

you see, there are points in your life when you have to map your future but at the same time you can't have the final say. when the decision is not entirely yours.

besides posting, i had to make that kind of decision when i had to choose which university i'd like to go to pursue my degree. since i chose to teach in primary school, i had two options:

 queensland university of technology (australia)   

or 

 university college plymouth of st mark & st john (the UK).

of course, assuming all disney fairy tales happened in the UK and i can't afford to go there unless sponsored and the four seasons are best experienced there, it was too easy for me to pick MARJON as my first choice and QUT went second. but fate led me to the path i wanted to travel less which also happened to be what i needed most for my character development. i remember dr. suraya announced names of teacher trainees that were offered a place in QUT. the minute she mentioned my name, reflexively my tears went streaming down my cheeks. i just couldn't hold my tears back hehe but it only lasted a few seconds okeh...

on that same day i asked dr. suraya- "mam, was my result not good enough for MARJON?" then she said- "no, but i have my own reasons for placing you in QUT". i never asked her anything with regards to that matter again and God knows what those reasons were. i wish i could read her mind!

so the wind blew me to australia, and i couldn't be more thankful to God for that. alhamdulillah, Allah has His own way of giving me lessons of life. even though i learned them the hard way, even though my tears went tsunami, i guess that was what i needed and what's best for me.

now, how does everything that i just bored you with have anything to do with posting? it's about being given options and at the same time having some authoritative figures determine the final yes or no for you. it is a major life-changing decision but it doesn't lie in your hand. na-ah, not fun. i pray that i'll be posted to the best school God has planned for me and i pray hard that the school  is located in the state i wish to be posted to. hehe. amiin...

New environment

saya seperti mahu menukar layout blog ini lagi.
tapi seperti malas mahu membuat balik element2 page di tepi2 ini dan juga setting2 lain.
mahu tapi tak tahu.

korang, korang... tolong pilihkan plsss?
mana lagi comey, layout yang sekarang atau yang bawah ini...
hmmm ya, i have a thing for benda2 stripey.
makaseh ya kamu.

Double T

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Tuesdays are now officially the emotional day of the week for me.

Tears dear Tears, please stop picking Tuesdays to roll down.

Better yet, please stop picking any day if possible.

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Happy ending

Can I stuff the witches, dragons, and villains parts and skip to the happy ending?
Oh wait, I can’t. Coz –

A) im no princess!
B) im not in a fairy tale in the first place,
C) honey, fairy tales are juz told tales, they’re not real!
D) im 21, get real!
E) and yes, have I mentioned that Disney supports Israel? (ade kena mengenakah?)
F) biggy questy – who guarantees it’s a happy ending again???

Hmmm… so much for my happy ending… yet, Allah knows best (2:216)…

And the right answer regarding the witches, dragons, and villains – “dan Kami pasti akan menguji kamu dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa, dan buah-buahan. Dan sampaikanlah kabar gembira kepada orang2 yang sabar” (2:155)

“… ingatlah, hanya dengan mengingat Allah hati menjadi tenteram” (13:28)

it’s so hard to let go

Allah knows best

Not really a big fan of copy and paste others’ pieces of writing into my blog.. but when I read diz, I feel so overwhelmed...

I asked for strength and Allah gave me difficulties to make me strong. I asked for wisdom and Allah gave me problems to solve. I asked for prosperity and Allah gave me brawn and brain to work. I asked for courage and Allah gave me dangers to overcome. I asked for patience Allah placed me in situations where I was forced to wait. I asked for love and Allah gave me troubled people to help. I asked for favors and Allah gave me opportunities. I received nothing I wanted. I received everything I needed.

It’s so true… isn’t it?

“Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. …” (2:286)

“Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal itu tidak menyenangkan bagimu. Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal itu tidak baik bagimu. Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui” (2:216)

Ya, I might have lost some things that I thought were good for me, but come to think that the true purpose of life as a Muslim is to please Allah, I’ve probably lost nothing after all…

“Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan agar mereka beribadah kepada-Ku” (51:56)


Oh Allah, guide me…..