warning: i'm going to bore you with the posting thingy again.
you see, there are points in your life when you have to map your future but at the same time you can't have the final say. when the decision is not entirely yours.
besides posting, i had to make that kind of decision when i had to choose which university i'd like to go to pursue my degree. since i chose to teach in primary school, i had two options:
queensland university of technology (australia)
or
university college plymouth of st mark & st john (the UK).
of course, assuming all disney fairy tales happened in the UK and i can't afford to go there unless sponsored and the four seasons are best experienced there, it was too easy for me to pick MARJON as my first choice and QUT went second. but fate led me to the path i wanted to travel less which also happened to be what i needed most for my character development. i remember dr. suraya announced names of teacher trainees that were offered a place in QUT. the minute she mentioned my name, reflexively my tears went streaming down my cheeks. i just couldn't hold my tears back hehe but it only lasted a few seconds okeh...
on that same day i asked dr. suraya- "mam, was my result not good enough for MARJON?" then she said- "no, but i have my own reasons for placing you in QUT". i never asked her anything with regards to that matter again and God knows what those reasons were. i wish i could read her mind!
so the wind blew me to australia, and i couldn't be more thankful to God for that. alhamdulillah, Allah has His own way of giving me lessons of life. even though i learned them the hard way, even though my tears went tsunami, i guess that was what i needed and what's best for me.
now, how does everything that i just bored you with have anything to do with posting? it's about being given options and at the same time having some authoritative figures determine the final yes or no for you. it is a major life-changing decision but it doesn't lie in your hand. na-ah, not fun. i pray that i'll be posted to the best school God has planned for me and i pray hard that the school is located in the state i wish to be posted to. hehe. amiin...
